sketches of my day: Leaving

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Leaving

The twins left yesterday morning but not before a flat on the truck and tears in my heart. Boulder or bust. It is such a conflicting internal struggle for parents this letting go, saying good bye – our heads and our heart don’t see it the same way. I am trying to allow my head to win this battle, this conquest of freedom and independence that I so want for all of my children but my silly heart still sees them at two, toddling around with buster brown haircuts and chubby little hands that were so warm to hold. Yesterday was rough. Today should be better, today I will paint and pull weeds – two great cures for all that troubles me.

see you later

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Showing Up for the MuseJanuary 8, 2012 at 11:29 AM
Oh Pam! They've gone to Boulder!? That's where I went to college- a great town! Hang in there. It's hard letting go...but it is the way it should be. They need to sail by their own cloth. Be kind to yourself. You are a good mother.;-) tilly
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Showing Up for the MuseJanuary 8, 2012 at 11:30 AM
Also- love the image of them- JUST outside the safety of your picket fence.
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Seeing (5/4/08 - 2/18/12) There they were, as I walked along the sidewalk that time and drought had lifted and cracked, the first fireflies of summer. They were scattered throughout the dark woods and at the very moment I saw their iridescent magic. I watched as they blinked and I forgot, for a moment, all that might have been wrong and remembered, instead, all that was right.There should be a place somewhere in our lives that encourages us to reflect and to appreciate the extraordinary gifts of nature, along with the ordinary things that make up our lives. The more time passes, the more I understand how important it is to take notice of all the simple things that are woven into my day. I hope to continue to discover and, with this blog, share those things that are close to the Earth and there for us always, while we are busy looking somewhere else.

Saying (2/19/12 - ongoing)

I think today is the day things will change here on "sketches of my day". I started this blog to showcase positives in my day, a place that combatted the negativities we are constantly bombarded with and instead became a place where the sun shines all the time. Well, I am changing a bit, I want to just write with complete honesty instead –" sketches of my day " will be just that, snapshots from the day, real ones, – I don’t do this to be egotistical; I do it to be helpful. I know that it is always a good thing to read about others and identify with their situations and then take what you need for your own life – that’s networking and sharing. I suppose it may seem a bit narcissistic but it isn’t – I just like to write and I feel that if I didn’t write or paint I’d go crazy – I must and this blog is such a great place for me because I can just throw it out there and someone may or may not read it and if they do they may be inspired by it – it’s a winning deal. So, with all of that proclaimed, I will begin again with this collection of thoughts, consequent words and a scattering of paintings to share the sketches of my day… pam shensky

sketches of my day

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Leaving

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